All photos by Simply M Photography.
As much as I love family photos, I am the worst about getting them done. This is our first professional shoot in at least a year. I know, I’m a horrible mother and generally a terrible human being. I didn’t do any maternity photos the first time around, it’s just not really my thing. But this time was different. Our family is about to change drastically again, and this time it’s not just going to change mine and Tyler’s lives, but also our sweet Hattie Jane’s. She is so excited to be a big sister, and I am so excited to watch her take on a role that I know she was born to play. I really wanted to document this moment in time where our family is still just the three of us, but with the sweet tension of anticipation of our new arrival just around the corner.
As still a relatively new mother, I am slowly getting accustomed to the feeling of having my heart completely full and broken in the same moment. As I look through these photos, I am at once completely in love with our future family of four, and also a little sad that our family of three will never be the same. Now that I’m in my third trimester, I desperately feel each day where it is just Tyler, Hattie, and myself ticking away; all the while feeling each day tick closer to a new joy entering my life. Crap, there go the hormonal waterworks.
I feel certain that it’s normal for moms (and dads) to worry a little how they could possibly love another child the way that they love their first, even if we don’t talk about that dark little thought out loud very often. But then, I didn’t think it was possible to love anyone the way that I love Hattie, so I know there are still mysteries left in my life to be discovered. For now, I'm choosing not to worry about it and to steal as many cuddles from Hattie as I possibly can while I have her all to myself.